Taking back girlhood

I grew up the kind of kid who always wanted to be different. I wanted to deny that I liked the things I liked because it would make me the same as everyone else. I've come to find that that is not a healthy way to grow up so I’m trying to take that back. I admit that I love Taylor Swift now and always have. My favorite color is pink. I think love is cool, and reality tv is so much fun to watch. I watched my first ever Bravo show last summer because Scandoval broke the internet and even made its way to CNN. I was working at a restaurant at the time and really related to the drama that goes on working in the service industry like it does on the early seasons of Vanderpump Rules. I was in awe with the dynamic of all the characters, and realized I’ve never seen people speak to their friends the way that they all spoke to one another. Watching them fight and make up and lean on one another. It’s an incredible study on human relationships and it’s just downright enjoyable to watch and talk about. In another light it is also escapism. Coming home from a long day it helps you take a break from your own reality by focusing on the issues of strangers. When I finished VPR I was itching for more and a friend I was watching the show with - a seasoned Bravo fan - told me I had to try the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, for more Lisa Vanderpump content and small crossovers with the young versions of the VPR cast-back when they were still just bartenders. I made it through all 14 seasons and am able to watch weekly now. I became obsessed and decided I need to watch everything bravo has to offer, so I moved on to the Real Housewives of Salt Lake City as I knew there were only 5 seasons and I heard one of the girls goes to prison which sounded extremely entertaining to watch. I had no idea it happened so early on in the show which was such a treat, and immediately followed up by exposing RealityVonTease? Incredible. But I was missing those young kids with lives that I related to. I remembered the episode of Vanderpump Rules where Stassi, Katie, and the girls went to the Hamptons to visit a “friend” where a young Kyle Cook tried to hit on Stassi by telling her she looked like Steve Jobs in her bathing suit which lead me to watch Summerhouse, and then of course Winterhouse in between seasons. Winterhouse gave us a more inside look at Paige DeSorbo and Craig Conover's relationship that has now been announced has come to an end, and again I needed more. It had to be Southern Charm. It fascinates me the way all these shows are intertwined practically forcing you to watch every little bit so you aren’t leaving a single leaf unturned. I am about halfway through Southern Charm at this point in time and lining up my next venture while keeping up with everything else that is currently running, like Traitors which mixes in other reality worlds I was somewhat familiar with. I’ve watched the Bachelor/Bachelorette/Bachelor in Paradise realm for the past 8 years, and Ariana Madix’s hosting season of Love Island USA and the first season of Love Island UK but damn there are just so many episodes. During covid I hyper fixated on Hell's Kitchen and even went to Hell’s Kitchen Las Vegas for my 25th birthday, where my partner got the beef wellington of course as I am a pescatarian. I love throwing myself into the world of whatever I am watching. Maybe it’s because if I know everything then I’ll have an easier time talking to people or not feeling left out. Yikes. Anyway, welcome to my page and welcome to my life as I try to reclaim my identity and figure out who the hell I am by digesting all the media and entertainment I can to find out what I really like.